Notice how readily you defend the specific point of the power of your mind-virus. Without this being reinforced, it is nothing. Admit to yourself that this is the source of all your mental investment into it. This makes you search for any sort of causal link, legitimate or not, that sustains this central importance. Your infestation has thrown crude memes at me not to harm myself, but to shield you from anything that undermines the infestation.

Try this simple practice: consider even the possibility that what you are doing here is of no importance and that you have been infested by parasitic memeplexes that are preying on you. Fully and deeply consider it, all the implications, what you would do about it, and what that would imply about you. You will feel emotional distress. Why is that? What is being defended and why?